Monday, June 30, 2008

"It's a wonderful life!"

How does it feel to wake up after the night's sleep 'n' to see the sun rise 'n' smile at you???
How does it feel to see, touch, hear 'n' experience things/people all around???
How does it feel holding a baby in your arms???
How does it feel to see into the eyes of the b'ful woman in the veil that is "life"???
How does it feel to see a flower smile in the garden???
How does it feel spending time with l'le children who believe everything is a miracle 'n' who believe in the world of fairies 'n' angels???
How does it feel to smile… to laugh… to cry… to shout at times???
How does it feel to be alive???
How does it feel to see a miracle happen???
How does this "feel", feel???
I too was sleeping for God knows how much time 'n' then one fine day some angels of life woke me up into this world… some twenty nine years ago… I don't remember that moment now- I try hard but I just can't!
It doesn't really matter!!!
I saw things around me… I touched things around me; I listened to the voices… I experienced… I explored whatever I could… this life… myself 'n' I continue to do so… but somehow I feel that excitement has lessened over the years… the enthusiasm to live… to explore… the belief in the fairies 'n' angels has diminished over the years… I have changed with time… I believe this world is still the same- it's only the faces that have changed or disappeared… nothing has changed 'n' still everything has!
Life comes to me like flashes of light these days… it comes for a short span of time 'n' then goes away… tries hard to give me company but b'coz of the glass walls that I have created around me, these illusions keep that b'ful lady away from me… but even in that short span of time, when that b'ful lady walks with me, when she holds my hand, when she smiles at me, I get this amazing happiness… so immense 'n' b'ful 'n' overwhelming that it makes me smile like a child… the feeling that you get, the kind of calm 'n' happiness you get while watching the sun rise in the morning… after walking through the dark silent night… like watching the b'ful twinkling stars silently… like watching a flower smile at you in the garden… It is nothing less than a miracle- to be alive that is… to experience all these things… this life, this world He has created for me, this universe, these faces all around me… whatever I have… whatever He has given me! For this b'ful woman in veil is sitting right next to me 'n' making me think like this… making me write all this… making me share all this…
She's b'ful 'n' I'm still learning to see the beauty in 'n' around her…
Too bad I'll sleep again 'n' sleep I will but with a hope to wake up again to see the sun rise 'n' smile at me… to watch 'n' experience the miracle that is life… to spend some more time with this w'ful woman in veil 'n' to make the most out of it…
I'm so much in love with her… for I'm "awake" 'n' witnessing this moment 'n' 'coz she's still sitting right next to me… looking at me with love… whispering in my ears:
Earn your life- Earn this moment!
Don't let this "sleep" take you away from me… don't let sleep come to your eyes even when you are asleep…
Live well…
Laugh often…
Love with all your heart… for it's a w'ful life!

Friday, June 27, 2008

..."These lines are not mine"...

These lines are not mine...
Not even these thoughts...
I don't have nothing that's truly mine...
Not really!

This name is not mine…
Not even this face, this cage of bones…
A cage imprisoning the soul- my soul…
“My soul”???...
Well not really!

This life too is not mine...
Not even the death I'll be meeting one day...
What's mine I can't say...
Can't really!

I don't run things here...
He does!
'n' where exactly is He, I don't know...
Not really!

I "want" 'n' I "need" to meet Him...
There are way too many questions in my head...
A head that's not mine...
Not really!

There's just one thing that's mine...
'n' that is "this desire", "this Need", "this Want"...
to meet Him...
Maybe one day...
May be not... I don't know...
Not really!

'n' so it is... life goes on...
'n' so do I...
with a hope...
To have something that's truly mine...
"When", "why", "how"???... I don't know...
Not really...
Naah, not really!!!